I told YOU so

Wanna know the best thing about my bestfriends?

1. You tell them your problems, they listen to you then try to help you out.

2. You think that they may be right but somehow you ignore their advice after a few days.

3. You go back to them and tell them what you have screwed up.

4. And they'll say, "I TOLD YOU SO".

5. They make you feel so bad that you end up crying.

6. Then they feel bad.

7. And things start from square one again.

Thanks Farid, I should have listened to you from the very beginning. I'm now at Stage 5 (and will probably be stuck there for quite some time). You were right when we spoke bout it at the canteen. I'm just lost emotionally. You saw it coming earlier than I did and I have to admit that I was stubborn. 

Day in, day out, I try to hold back my tears. I do not want to cry in front of my family. I have so much things to do during these two weeks (i.e. filling up those Uni entrance forms, testimonial, etc) but all I could think of is "Is he out with some other girl?" or "He's probably kissing/hugging/holding hands with her" or "Maybe I'm just on his 'to-do' list (if you know what I mean)" or "SHUT UP CARMEN! YOU GOT NO RIGHTS TO SAY ANYTHING!!" 

xoxo, -carmen-