Scattered All Over

Usually, you would expect me to post pictures of my night outs/getaways alongside with the intimate details once you've seen the pictures itself on Facebook. 

I guess the pictures are self-explanatory. Fun. Friendship. Beautiful people. 

The people you mix with changes you. No doubt about that. I've just been the quiet observer for the past month and OH BOY! I don't even want to get started on it. The saying 'birds of the same feather flock together' is undeniably true. I do not understand how some could be so ignorant over a certain issue. I'm not saying that I'm perfect (note the title of the blog) but at the very least, I acknowledge my little imperfections. 

I turned 21 a few months back and made a silent vow to myself. It changed so many things, things that I had to reluctantly forgo. One thing the business world had thought me 'Always cover up your ass no matter what kinda shit comes out'.

My mind is scattered all over the places right now for some particular reason. This post may not even make sense to some of you and I sincerely apologize for wasting a few precious minutes of your life (but hey, thanks for reading it). 

Right now, I'm so afraid of looking up because this is what I get (for your info, finals is not till May)

I dare face my fears. How about you?

This term: 

- 50% coursework for three of the papers.

- Law itself is a killer. Same goes to Economics. Combine those two, you do the math!

- I have to study three of the papers that I struggled most last term.

Till then, I've got no fucking time for your childishness. Nuff' said.

xoxo, -carmen-

O.M.G.

Have you ever lost someone so close to you and regret later in life that you did not have an opportunity to know that person better? 

I have.

Have you seen someone whom you grew up with suffered in pain up to the very last moment?

I have.

The worst time of my life and I shall not elaborate further simply because I know how painful it is and I do not want YOU to go through it. Yes, YOU - the one reading this.

CANCER, our number one enemy. Even with all the technology advancement, we have yet to find a cure to it. We can fly men to outer space. Scientists even researched on the possibility of having us all move to planet Mars. We worry about getting the latest Apple products. Corruption. Civil wars. What is wrong with this world? Do you really want to see a child going through the painful processes of chemotherapy? The countless operations? NO! 

2011, let it be the start of something new, something MEANINGFUL.

In collaboration with Pusat Perubatan University Malaya (PPUM), KDU Pre-U Department will be kicking off year with O.M.G. (Oh My Girl, based on the adaptation of Shakespeare's The Taming of the Shrew) charity play for the Children's Cancer Fund, PPUM. 

A KDU student production =)

Thank you to all of you who were involved for putting in so much effort for a good cause!

The Children's Cancer Fund is to help children aged 6 months to 17 years old to get access to necessary treatments and operations for them to survive our number one enemy, Cancer. A child needs RM6000 (appx. £1200) per cycle of chemotherapy (and mind you, cancer cannot be cured in just one session!). Watch this short clip and you'll know what I mean.

O.M.G., the play, will be held on the 26th, 27th and 29th of January 2011. Details are as follows:

Date & Time: 26 Jan 2011 (Wed), 2pm

Price: RM 15

Dress Code: Smart Casual

Date & Time: 27 Jan 2011 (Thurs), 7pm

Price: RM 15

Dress Code: Smart Casual

Date & Time: 29 Jan 2011 (Sat), 7pm

Price: RM 100/200 (Tickets inclusive of a 3 course Italian Meal). 8-seater tables available at RM800/RM1600.

Dress Code: Black Tie

- For tickets (and donations), contact Kelvin Hong (0167536798) and Yi Lyn (0174060677)

RM15 from YOU, is that too much to ask for? Cut down on your phone bill, teh-tarik sessions, alcohol and cigarettes for A WEEK and you can buy time and perhaps lives for these children! Busy with work? Uni?Assignments? No time? These children who are in need of help are in a worse position compared to you! They go through pain physical, mentally and emotionally and THEY ARE AGED BETWEEN 6 months to 17 years old. 

Think about this, we were once the future generation, and thanks to our forefathers, we did it. They are NOW, OUR future generation, it becomes OUR responsibilities to help them.

Don't you think it is about time for you to stock up on your karma points? 

Cheers to the New Year!

xoxo, -carmen-

Away From Home

Being away from home makes me an awful person. 

a) I have been falling ill for the past 3 months. Must be the lack of mummy's cooking and all her herbal soup that I sometimes dread drinking. Yes, I can cook a decent meal (stop laughing!) but its just incomparable to Mummy's =(

b) I miss ganging up with Papa when it comes to football to tease my sucker brother who (still) supports Liverpool

c) Sharing stories with Manwyn and Carven. Telling each other about everything. Making jokes about almost everyone we know.

The two people who knows EVERY.SINGLE.THING. about me

d) Smacking Carven's ass and then chase each other around the house (yes, I still do that till today!)

e) And I miss THE annoying Manxen who just enjoys answering back while showing silly faces. And his 'Jie Jie, I want something' hugs

Big Fat Buffalo.

'Three of my elder siblings are awesome but I'm not because my mother found me in the dustbin' - That was one of his facebook statuses. HAHA!

f) Most of all, I would do anything for a Siblings Outing Day (which is almost difficult for us to arrange one now considering that Manwyn will be flying off to Aussie in a month's time and we have different holiday timings and the probability of Carven leaving for America in a year's time or so)

 I want to go back to this Japanese restaurant, please tell Papa that!

 Way before the last monkey was born

 Would you ever kiss me like this right now, brother?

OHGOD! I think I just puked, swallowed it and puked again. 

 Stop growing any taller!

Finally.

It sucks when you come from such a close-knitted family and then you have to be away from home for a VERY VERY long time. I'm sure my parents feel even worse when the thought of all four of their kids being separated to different continents crosses their minds. I'm tearing already.

Uni has started but I have yet to attend a single lecture no thanks to the damn fever and sore throat and gastric attacks and back-aches. Story of my life. Sheeessshh... But you know what? I'm a strong girl, I can go through this. 

Now, let me get back to working on my presentation with me wrapped in my soft duvet. I love presentations! Whoopppiieee! (in case of any misinterpretations, I wasn't being sarcastic. I mean during presentations, I get to think on my feet regarding a subject and I love the adrenaline rush, and not to forget the attention I get while I'm speaking!)

Till then, maybe I should consider being a politician! What say you?


xoxo, -carmen-

Guess Who's Back This Year?!

So, the last time I wrote an entry was almost 6 months ago. Things have changed. SO MANY. So many ups and downs - mainly downs if you are one of them who knows the things that I had to go through (and by definition of 'one of them', I refer to my closest friends who get to know things FROM ME). 

Yes, backstabbers, haters, rumour-spreaders, whoever.... All I need is a good cry to reboot my life - you did not kill me, you just made me stronger and I thank you for that from the bottom of my heart 

My three guardian angels. I don't know what I did in the past to deserve the three of you

 Shereen, I'll build a bridge from here to Malaysia just for you

Ivan, your constant protection from the bad and the evil

 Justin, thanks for doing whatever you can just to carve a smile on my face - and that includes free hairstyling!

Langkawi, one of the best moments in our lives! I cant wait for the three of you to be here!

With the help of Facebook, you may have noticed these (in no particular chronological order):

1) The girls came up with a witty idea for Xmas 

I cant seem to find the rotate button although the original picture isn't vertically challenged

2) I am precisely 8 months away from being a Masters holder - meaning one step to becoming Dr. Leong Carmen. Masters is a pain in the ass, it challenges me mentally, physically and emotionally but it is just one of my constant rants.

I did it, Mummy & Papa! I told you I'll go back for Summer with a First Class Degree. Thank you for putting up with me, being a stubborn headed pig, I know that it wasn't easy!

3) I celebrated my 21st birthday. Yes, 21 (apparently, people still take me as a joke. Why? Because I'm the youngest here. See the crap I have to deal with at times?). At least I am at the stage whereby I could still go around telling other people of my age. HA. HA. 

Carved.

4) And the much awaited proclamation, I am a free bird. And I quote YPS 'Why the hell do I feel like I'm talking to Serena Van Der Woodsen?' I'm sorry I had to put you through so much of my crap. I am grateful for your scoldings =)

My better half =)

On a serious note, I don't know what made me blog again.. Maybe it is the need to express myself, the need to just be alone and reflect on things, the need to send a subtle message across, I am not sure.. I have contained so many emotions inside me. I pretend to smile, I pretend that everything is alright but deep down, I'm like a ticking time bomb. Talking to someone does help, but its temporal. 

OH WELL, SMILE CARMEN, SMILE.

Till then, toodles

xoxo, -carmen-