Lists

Instead of attempting all past year questions for my International Finance paper, I ended up drawing a list of things to do before and after my finals.
BEFORE:
a) Pre-exam party (I was invited to two events, both fall on the same day. But I think I'll stick to Funky Star)
b) 'Sleepovers'
c) STUDY, STUDY, STUDY
d) Make the most expensive purchase ever!
AFTER:
a) NAVEL PIERCING! (Yes, I'm finally doing it after all the delays!)
b) Shopping, shopping, shopping
c) Girls in bunny costumes. I shall not explain further.
d) London, Birmingham, Cornwall, Sunderland, Manchester, Germany and perhaps Madrid?
e) Work, Party, Sleep, Work, Party, Sleep
f) Beach Party/ Summer Party for 4 consecutive days (fingers crossed!)

Also, stop asking me when I would be in a stable relationship and stop throwing random proposals. I will throw you the same ridiculous answer "I doubt I will ever be in one and if you want to be with me, ask my ex-boyfriend!" 

I can think of 6 people at this moment who will give me a big tight slap if I were to say, "I have a feeling that things are going to change when I'm back in Malaysia" I actually mean it when I say it, the 6 of you would know what I'm referring to. I love you to bits and I hope you guys will just bear with me and my attitude towards this whole mess. 

xoxo, -carmen-

Just When

I am going through a roller coaster ride of emotions, my Dad agreed to get the Blackberry for me. The thought of it makes me smile. Nonetheless, I'm not going to be too excited about it because history has taught me a great lesson about being overexcited: It backfires!

We sometimes choose to see what we want to see without digging deeper for facts, without listening with an open heart, without observing closely.

25th of April 2010, precisely one more month before I graduate (that is if I don't have any resits but this is NOT the time to have my first resit!). I have always wanted to be away from home but at this point, I want to give everything up and just go home. 20 years and 7 months. I'll have to start earning my own money and be independent in a month's time. A promise I made, I promise I'll keep. Shitdiedamnfuck is the best word to describe my situation at the moment! Where am I going to find RM100K within a year to fund my Masters? 

I think I'm going through a pre-mid life crisis now.

xoxo, -carmen-

Sarcasm

We all go through the many stages in life. The good, the bad, the laughters, the cries. The moment we step into primary school, we were warned by our parents to choose our friends carefully. We were warned of the people we mix with. I believe that the way we were brought up shaped us into being who we are today. 

Now, let's talk about SARCASM. Something that most people find it amusing but in actual fact, it is capable of hurting one's feelings. Once in awhile, sarcasm may spice up a conversation but if used at inappropriate times, I'd rather have someone slit my throat. Say, you are arguing with your significant other, and all you get is sarcasm being thrown at you when you are trying to be serious, when you are acting all matured, apologizing and expecting a matured response. 

Yes, we are hypocrites. I can be a pain in the ass at most times but when I tell you that I am serious, I AM. I'm not going to beat around the bush and make you think if I am talking about you. I don't even know if the actual person is reading this but what the hell:

Galvin Lim Wee Kiat, I tried talking nicely to you, you were acting like a 3 year old child. I know why you are so good at being sarcastic, but I am not going to touch on that issue right now. Dude, GROW UP  okay? You are no longer the guy I once fell in love with. I swear. Maybe it is the distance, maybe it isn't. Maybe it is just pure hatred, maybe Pei San was right about pushing things too fast. Or maybe, we were just using each other as rebounds. You probably think the same about me (about me changing) but there is always two sides to a story and both are at fault. I tried approaching you at my most womanly behaviour but time after time the words uttered by you are worse than drinking a Sperm Shot (it's an alcoholic drink, not what you think it is). I do not know how else to talk to you nicely any more. Just remember, the next time you have a girlfriend, please learn how to speak to her properly and no sarcasm okay? You just don't go around hurting the people you love with your words. Just please make this one promise? Hurting me is okay, I know I'm tough enough to handle it, for now. 

Sperm shot on the left.

Till then, Goodbye!

xoxo, -carmen-

I Fell In Love

Want to know what is on my mind now?

Blackberry Bold 9700.

So beautiful, so sexy. I think I'll be getting it by this weekend. Text dad and asked if he wanted to 'sponsor' half of the cost (he knows my definition and the meaning behind the usage of the word 'sponsor'. Sure he does!) but I'm pretty sure he's not going to reply to that message unless I call him. Then again, I have one quarter of his salary in my bank account now. *grins evilly* I have computed the cost and the cheapest would be 370pounds. That is about 67 hours of work at KFC (and no shopping for approximately one month!) 

HELL NO!

I shall be a mother-loving temple-going daughter for the next few weeks and bug him till he says 'YES'. The problem is, my mother musn't find out about this!

Pfffttt...

xoxo, -carmen-

My Favourite Pictures

I have to admit, since I got back from the trip, I have not been updating the blog. Why? 

a) extra hours in KFC

b) catching up with studies

c) laundry, laundry, laundry (I hand-wash my clothes just so you know! I love them too much. Not going to risk  by chucking the taller-than-Mount-Everest pile of clothes into the washing machine)

d) catching up with my family (If you are like, my parents are suing the government and I only knew that they were serious when they were on their way to the press conference)

e) cleaning up the mess in my room and my apartment

f) dealing with a particular 'bitch' (but let's not talk about it cause I don't deal with pussies)

Because it would be utterly ridiculous for me to upload the 600-odd pictures from my Eurotrip, I have cherry-picked a few for your eyes only (=

At Schiphol Airport to Keukenhof Garden

The boys

Beautiful aye?

I think I should start choosing my flower arrangements for my wedding night

in 10 years time that is

I fell in love with this place

The night we went club-hopping 

and the both of us had to do all the flirting to get free drinks and free entrance

(Defo did not regret getting that green top, its all about improvising!)

I don't even want to know why it is green in colour.

Its free, WHAT THE HECK?

And he calls it his 'condom toothbrush'

I AMsterdam

Brownies baked by my mum will never taste the same again

The view from my bed.

Like World War II

While stoning at the park at Museumplein

And now, Hamburg and Luneburg

The view from our room at my cousin's place in Luneburg

Hamburg City Hall

Anyone remember this?

No idea why there is a door on the second floor

(=

Easter Bonfire somewhere in the middle of nowhere

We had to hike for 30minutes in the dark!

After a glass of Caipirinha, a shot of Cherry vodka and sparkling wine

ICE-CREAM! After easter lunch that is

Easter Chocos. YUM!

Okay, I have to stop here. Berlin and Frankfurt next okay? Gotta run to Uni now!

Till then, stop linking me to Galvin Lim. I've said it, now you need not bitch behind my back. I'm the best he can ever get for the rest of his life. Bitchy much? Thank you, come again.

xoxo, -carmen-

Officially Back

So here I am, back from my 2 weeks break, from Bristol to Birmingham to London to Amsterdam to Hamburg to Luneburg to Berlin and finally Frankfurt.


This trip has made me realise many things. Good ones and also the bad ones. Especially after my job interviews in UCL. I have decided what I'm going to do and I shall stick to it. A miracle is going to happen soon. I know that (=


Relationship wise, not that good. I'm a very confused bitch right now. But all is good. I know what I want, and call me selfish, but I'd rather do what I enjoy doing first then consider about being in a relationship than to make everyone else suffer with me. I'm just going to focus on my finals and then plan another Eurotrip with Mum in June. Screw the rest!


Till then, pictures will be uploaded on Facebook.


xoxo, -carmen-