Missing all of you!

22 great people I have met over the weekend

"and the next finalist is.....Carmen!"

those were the words which I will never forget.Yeay!I managed to get into the top 12 of The Ultimate Prom Night.It is a reality tv show which will be aired on the 5th of november on 8tv.every thursday at 9.30pm(and it is during primetime!yikes!).I met 22 other great people during the weekends.yes,it was tiring but we had fun staying till 12.45am to do our shooting and only get 3-4hours of sleep and on sunday,it was more activities!great people over there.I miss you guys already though we only knew each other for about 1 and a half days *sigh* will never forget arvin and his sleeping poses(he sleeps everywhere and anytime!),daniel and his ego,nicolette and her beautiful smile,shereen the hottie,rhea the other hottie,radie the determined girl,ivan the horny guy,victor the cutie,colin and his games,eeyan and his piercings,belinda the gorgeous,wai ling the sweetie,zye the tough girl,atiqah the rocker,fatin and her takeshi kaneshiro,jian the shy guy,adam the macho guy,felicia the innocent one, byren the snoop dogg,farhan the playboy...err..crap!i cant remember the names right now..but anyway,u guys were great!yeay!at least we know that out of all the people,we were the top 23 in the whole of Malaysia!to aaron tan and tania(our producers) and to all the 8tv crew,u guys were great!oh esp our hairstylists and our make-up artists.well,will see 11 of them in sept and to the rest,see you guys on the 5th of december!

xoxo,-carmen-

SHOCKING!

ok,already I have to take 5 subjects(killer!) this semester and also organize two events and I just got the most shocking phone call ever!I was shortlisted to be one of the contestants for The Ultimate Prom Nite hosted by 8tv. YIKES! >.<> make-up sessions!) and all I had to do was just smile in front of the camera(something which I don't think is a problem) and talk in front of the camera for a minute(its like talking to yourself).So yea,ahhh!!!!I have so many things in my mind now.So many things to be done in such a short time!I have to admit Im nervous and excited.Will have to be at Sri Pentas this Fri-Sun(yeay!staying with new people) for some grooming session and a personality camp or whatever it is.Its something new and Im looking forward towards it.I do hope that I get a lot of support from my family and friends.Guys,just bear with me if Im too busy to layan you k?Will make it up to you guys!

xoxo,-carmen-

Bleahhh

ahhh!my assignments are starting to pile up!!pffttt...I have decided to start studying for my finals..its 4 mths away..just felt like doing so x) so,yes,my econs book is opened and its right in front of me..back in college and here comes another week of my hectic life..cant wait to get out from this place next yr :S Hadi,if u r reading this,i know ur life sucks right now cause u just found out that u got chosen for the National Service..haha!at least you will start praying consistently after this..don worry,no matter what happens,I love you boy!okie,gotta sign off and be a N.E.R.D.

xoxo,-carmen-

This is life

YES!my f.a.v.o.u.r.i.t.e. word!had 4 days of shopping in a row last weekend with my babes and went shopping 2day and WILL be going again 2morrow.YIPEE!!have loads of things in my mind now.

a) thinking bout him
b) where to go during the hari raya hols?
c) how do I get sponsors for my event?
d) should I go to china at the end of this year?
e) can I tackle this sem?
f) what else should I buy when I shop 2morrow?

bleahhh..okay,I dont want to worsen the situation.those are just one quarter of the things I have in mind now.

hmmm..I have been really upset over what I have read in the newspapers last 2-3 days and also 2day bout the opening ceremony of the Beijing Olympics. Firstly, the small girl who got replaced cause she has uneven teeth(?). Isnt it unfair to judge a person by how she looks?I mean,come on,she's just a little girls and little girls have uneven teeth.what were the organizers thinking?If im not mistaken,one of them said "we just want to portray the right image of China" or something like that,then im just so ashamed of being a Chinese.My grandfather came from China.My boyfriend is from there too.And also,in today's newspapers,apparently,the girls had 2 be stripped so that their "bone measurements" could be taken before being chosen to perform on that night.1.66m and pretty?WHAT?havent these people heard of DISCRIMINATION?argghh!I would be ashamed if I were to be a Chinese(from China). Technically,I am and yeah!im so ashamed of being a chinese at this moment!I really hope that these people would change their mentality.oh well,all the best to Lee Chong Wei.Really hope that he can deliver a gold for our country.

xoxo, -carmen-

The God of Small Things

Here I am sitting in front of my notebook,blogging after reading that book,drinking my chocolate cereal drink for dinner while listening to Feel The Beat by Da Rude. Its funny how things work at times. Karma, deja vu -or whatever they call it- all seems unreal to me at times but heck! it has happened to me several times! Once again, I don't know how all these come around. My point is that no matter how hard we try at times, at one point of time, we will stop and wonder "What will happen if I were to do this instead of that?" We sometimes break rules in order to achieve satisfaction or rather to get what we ACTUALLY want. Yes, I admit, I can be very selfish and self-centered at times especially when I know what I WANT but guess what? I am not the only one! You know,the best part about life is, to those who have yet to realize, we condemn about others but without realizing that we are actually doing it. Based on this book, my favourite line is, and I quote,

"They all crossed forbidden territory.
They all tampered with the laws that lay down who should be loved, and how.
And how much."

xoxo,-carmen-