My Little Black Dress Story: April 2009

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

She goes wrong again

I thought I could let go

I was wrong. I need my bestie, S, to save me and thank God she has been there for me.

xoxo,-carmen-

Sunday, April 19, 2009

That's the end of it

18 months and 20 days. That's about 550 days or in other words 13200 hours.

The first time I set my eyes on you, I knew that we could be like Houdini. But it actually took me 13200 hours to realise that I was wrong. Some saw it coming sooner and had daringly placed a bet. We proved them wrong. But they were persistent and just knew that it was impossible for us to keep on winning.

You changed so much this past few months. It hurts me to see you like that but I just kept it to myself and thought maybe you are just going through a phase. You finally admitted yesterday (you just had to do it 2 days before my final examination and you damn well know how much exams mean to me). I don't blame you for it. You were just being too futuristic and you are plain CHILDISH. Dammit

I'm sure you know me well enough to know that I would rather give up on someone if that person has to choose between me and his parents. I don't want to see you living in confusion. Well, now that its the end of it, you probably thought that I would have had a sleepless night last night but guess what? It's been ages since I had a good night's sleep. I feel so much lighter (though the occassional flashbacks still occur but what the hell!).

Thanks for the good times (I'll take it as memories in Nilai). Thanks for the bad times (it taught me to be a better future gf). My eyes have dried up for you. Maybe deep down, I kinda saw it coming but I was living in denial. Yes, it did occur to me that you were probably not ready to commit yourself as yet. Screw you for that for I'm a stronger person now!

p/s who's next on the list? Mr. Right, where art thou?

xoxo, -carmen-

Thursday, April 16, 2009

I'm not thinking straight

She knows that you are reading this

And she misses you

She is sure that you miss her too

You know who you are. SAY IT and she'll feel better

*winks*

xoxo, -carmen-

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Our Titanic version..Vincent looks funny

My team members..I <3 working with them

Candid shot

Love this pic..

Hahaha! We wanted to waste the memory space on Harez's cam

This is so hilarious! Ain't he a cutie?

Awww...We blame the rain!

Ahahaha..after our presentation

Love this!

Just as I thought that I could sleep for 25hours a day upon completion of my assignments and presentations, FINALS just had to knock on my door.

BLEAHHHH!!!

I can't wait for my trip to Redang Island and Perhentian Island next month :) WHEEE!

Ouhhh...need to shop for my hot bikini

Freedom in 2 weeks time :)

I've got no idea why I'm blogging in point form

Thanks harez for the absolutely wonderful pictures!

Love your camera.

xoxo, -carmen-

Friday, April 3, 2009

Thanks, Pa

Pa & Ma

As a kid, I have always wanted to be a lawyer, following the footsteps of my parents. Besides, I have always thought that it'll be cool wearing the blazer, walking around Court with Court heels, arguing, standing up for my client's rights...you get the picture. I would put on my mum's blazer (which was 10 times my size back then) and wear her Court heels and sashay around her office whenever I was bored. School was just 10 mins away from her office. I was there most of the time running in and out, sleeping on the sofa in my dad's room, playing computer games, doing homework, etc..

Then, as I entered the acne-popping stage, I told myself that I was really childish back then because the only reason I wanted to be a lawyer was to wear the zebra-looking uniform (black and white, in other words). Relatives and friends would ask me on my ambition and within a nano-second, I would say "LAWYER". And they will ask

"But why? Don't you have enough lawyers in your family? Another cousin of yours is also a lawyer" or "Is the Leong clan breeding lawyers? ONLY lawyers?"

*sigh*

And of course, I would say "Don't know" but what I actually meant was

"LOOK, someone has to take over my parents' firm someday. And I would take up that responsibility. I think its fun to do criminal law anyway. Pa brings back pictures of dead bodies most of the time and I'll be the one doing all the highlighting for him. I think its interesting. Plus, I enjoy talking. Talking is my passion. Lawyers talk A LOT. And I will always be able to tell when someone is lying. Try living with my parents and you'll know what I mean!"

After SPM, I insisted to do my degree in law but my dad said that I'll need to study locally and I was like

"WHAAATT?? NOOOOO!!! But paa....... I want to complete my law degree in UK"

"When you come back to practice law, you'll need to sit for your CLP examination and the passing rate NOW is already so high, by the time you graduate it'll be even HIGHER. You'll not want to resit for that CLP examination if you've failed once"

"I'm your daughter, I can do it. It's in my genes."

*dad smacks forehead*

And I would go to my mum and tell her about it and she'll say, that he's right. And, criminal law is quite heavy for a girl. Being stubborn headed, I told her that I'll do what I want.

Few weeks later, for some weird reasons, after being persistent for almost my entire life, I finally decided to do a degree in Accounting and Finance.

"Alright pa, now that I'm not doing my law degree, I want to further my studies in UK"

At the beginning of the semester, I was pretty eager to study Law in Business. After studying that subject for the past 13 weeks, all I can say is "Thanks Pa!"

I finally found the real definition of murder, LAW!

xoxo, -carmen-