So, the last time I wrote an entry was almost 6 months ago. Things have changed. SO MANY. So many ups and downs - mainly downs if you are one of them who knows the things that I had to go through (and by definition of 'one of them', I refer to my closest friends who get to know things FROM ME).
Yes, backstabbers, haters, rumour-spreaders, whoever.... All I need is a good cry to reboot my life - you did not kill me, you just made me stronger and I thank you for that from the bottom of my heart
My three guardian angels. I don't know what I did in the past to deserve the three of you
Shereen, I'll build a bridge from here to Malaysia just for you
Ivan, your constant protection from the bad and the evil
Justin, thanks for doing whatever you can just to carve a smile on my face - and that includes free hairstyling!
Langkawi, one of the best moments in our lives! I cant wait for the three of you to be here!
With the help of Facebook, you may have noticed these (in no particular chronological order):
1) The girls came up with a witty idea for Xmas
I cant seem to find the rotate button although the original picture isn't vertically challenged
2) I am precisely 8 months away from being a Masters holder - meaning one step to becoming Dr. Leong Carmen. Masters is a pain in the ass, it challenges me mentally, physically and emotionally but it is just one of my constant rants.
I did it, Mummy & Papa! I told you I'll go back for Summer with a First Class Degree. Thank you for putting up with me, being a stubborn headed pig, I know that it wasn't easy!
3) I celebrated my 21st birthday. Yes, 21 (apparently, people still take me as a joke. Why? Because I'm the youngest here. See the crap I have to deal with at times?). At least I am at the stage whereby I could still go around telling other people of my age. HA. HA.
Carved.
4) And the much awaited proclamation, I am a free bird. And I quote YPS 'Why the hell do I feel like I'm talking to Serena Van Der Woodsen?' I'm sorry I had to put you through so much of my crap. I am grateful for your scoldings =)
My better half =)
On a serious note, I don't know what made me blog again.. Maybe it is the need to express myself, the need to just be alone and reflect on things, the need to send a subtle message across, I am not sure.. I have contained so many emotions inside me. I pretend to smile, I pretend that everything is alright but deep down, I'm like a ticking time bomb. Talking to someone does help, but its temporal.
OH WELL, SMILE CARMEN, SMILE.
Till then, toodles
xoxo, -carmen-
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